waiting in the wings

inadvertently, i found myself serving in youth.

not the place i wanted to be from the start. neither the place i would imagine myself serving in. some say they are called to be in youth ministry, others, a passion; i never can say i felt either way. it's something that has just grown on me.

the energy, the potential and awesome young ones with big dreams that God has given them - i must say it inspires me to keep going on and to imagine how God can use each one of them change the world in the future.

but, being in youth isn't always rosy and idealistic.

its almost likened to being in a place of controversy but there are the times, i find myself in a place where only God sits alone with me and my tears.

i stand between a generation -

of those that don't yet know the big gifts and future that God has placed and graced for their lives, not yet because it is latent,

and of those that have gone before and conquered giants of their own time.

a not-nice place to be; i wonder if this is how Jesus felt, bridging the gap for a holy God and sinful man. it assures me knowing that my Jesus has borne it all and gone way before me.

still, i ramble, only because my thoughts are scrambled and i've lost a little of my heart somewhere.

i looked through the bible for some semblance of encouragement and solace because if anything i hide myself in the Word and instead of finding the verse i was looking for, i came upon this:

"Children shouldn’t have to look out(lay up) for their parents; parents look out for the children." [2cor12:14, MSG]

i can't put into words how i feel reading this, but its just amazing that the gospel is always for the next generation, and the next and the next. And if God willing, the next. not for my generation, but always always keeping in mind for the next.

first lesson learnt from pastor melvin - the message is the same, but the method must change. it has to change because,

'Instead of Your fathers shall be Your sons, whom You shall make princes in all the earth/ I will make Your name to be remembered in all generations; Therefore the people shall praise You forever and ever' [psalm45:16-17]

watching + waiting in the wings